regshoe

...dare I ask which is the worst?

Hmm, that's interesting about the backstory changing in the later books! But I did like lines like Bush found his hand twitching—he had been about to commit the enormity of patting his captain’s shoulder, and restrained himself just in time. —that sort of extreme emotional repression is generally a good basis for shipping. :D

I have all too much sympathy for how exhausting and demoralizing it is to have a brain that works like that. :-/

I'm sorry. <3 But I see what you mean—I didn't relate to Hornblower that way but I certainly have done to other fictional characters with weird issues, and it's definitely validating in a kind of bleak sort of way.